Archive for the ‘inspiration/obsession’ Category
Because I needed something epic.
An incinerator designed by the artist, Hundertwasser. Vienna, Austria. September 2008.
Power lines. Bratislava, Slovakia. September 2008.
Crash. Cinque Terre, Italy. October 2008.
Looking up. Cinque Terre, Italy. October 2008.
Epic architecture. Pisa, Italy. October 2008.
Onset of dusk. Venice, Italy. October 2008.
Post-mass, post-Pope sighting. Vatican City, Italy. October 2008.
Holocaust Memorial, solo trip. Berlin, Germany. October 2008.
Falling night. Berlin, Germany. October 2008.
Ripple. Dubrovnik, Croatia. October 2008.
Almost holy. Lovcen, Montenegro. October 2008.
Still waters. Mostar, Bosnia Herzegovina. October 2008.
Perfect timing. Barcelona, Spain. November 2008.
Columns. Sevilla, Spain. November 2008.
Compacted. Paris, France. December 2008.
A foggy London town. London, England. December 2008.
Suburbs. Outside Vienna, Austria. January 2009.
Casual-like. East Coast Beach, Singapore. April 2010.
Get set. Perth, Australia. July 2010.
Off the Georgetown ferry. Penang, Malaysia. December 2010.
Bustle on Bukit Bintang. Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia. December 2010.
The Kuta crowd. Bali, Indonesia. May 2011.
Advantageous. Skyline, Singapore. July 2011.
Sepulcher. Yogyakarta, Indonesia. December 2011.
Afternoon sky, unnamed road. Yogyakarta, Indonesia. December 2011.
Sunrise. Pasir Ris, Singapore. Early 2012.
Crater. Bandung, Indonesia. April 2012.
5am sunrise. Frankfurt, Germany. June 2012.
Summer dreaming. Kassel, Germany. June 2012.
Sunset. Pasir Ris, Singapore, June 2012.
Hi lovely biscuits! Yesterday I got a bit of disappointing news. Some of you might know (if you follow me on Twitter, if not add me at @nabbycat) that I was involved in Short + Sweet Singapore which is a festival which presents 10-minute plays. I registered to be a director, picked my script, conducted auditions for actors, picked the cast for my piece, had rehearsals, was planning my lighting and set design and so forth, and all these within the span of a couple of weeks. Though there was really a time crunch and it was quite stressful, I was actually really looking forward to seeing the result of my rehearsals with my cast. The performance was scheduled for next week, that is, until the organisers decided to cancel the entire show. And this, one week before opening night.
Well, let’s just say I was shell-shocked. Especially when you are told that the reason behind the sudden cancellation is “due to unforeseen circumstances”. Shock soon turned into anger, then disappointment and now, resignation. The good news is that there is a chance that all the work my actors and I put in might not be in vain, there might be an alternative platform to showcase our work sometime next year, so all is not lost. Also I have decided to think positive and take stock of all the things I learnt from the experience – being in charge of how rehearsals go, sharing my vision with my actors and having them trust me, these were things completely new to me and quite amazing experiences in and of themselves.
Sorry for that long story but thought I’d document my thoughts during this whole period. Anyway, I decided to turn to my blog to cheer myself up since I haven’t really done that in a while. It’s kind of like blog therapy in a way. Looking for nice images and reading blogs can be a really good source of comfort – it’s like you can curate your own source of happiness. Here are some visuals that caught my fancy, enjoy! It’s really a hodgepodge of images but I guess that’s probably just my state of mind tonight.
Thanks for listening (reading) guys!
Hi dears! I did this exercise for my friend where I had look for ten photos which represented success to me. It was a really interesting exercise and made for some good soul-searching as well. These were some of the photos that I picked.
You should try it as well!
So this is how it ends.
Mereka it’s been a pleasure to have been part of you, and like they say this is not the end of the road for us. Some of us may embark on new journeys after this, in fact, all of us will, but we do so knowing that we have been part of something bigger. Something that was so intrinsically part of us that we did not realise it.
I did not realise it till I departed the gates of the abandoned building that I still do not know the name of. A space that seemed so daunting at first, but soon became so familiar that I left it in tears. A space that, when filled with the sounds of Irfan playing the takbir on the flute, made it feel so sadly beautiful and so appropriate given that it was Mereka’s last official day being together.
Is it silly of me to say that I don’t know how to let go? Perhaps I am inexperienced in such matters. But I’d like to think that this one year has been special for all of us. There have been so many moments..happy ones, funny ones, frustrating ones, proud ones…so many others you can’t place an emotion on. Let’s hold on to them while we are out there doing great things. Because we will be out there doing great things.
Lastly, I thank each and everyone of you from the bottom of my heart. Thank you Tini, Asyikin, Izzaty, Mo, Hammy, Nabila T, Hafiz, Li, Ruzaini, Khalid, Ezzat, Hazwan, Bib. For all the words of encouragement, for the support, the hugs, the inside jokes, the teasing, the food, the laughter, the strength, the moments of learning. I will not forget.
A special thank you goes to the amazing Irfan who puts in so much work for us that we sometimes do not recognise. Who puts in so much of himself into us that I know part of his heart belongs to Mereka. Who lets emotions get the better of him when it comes to us simply because we reside in that part of him where emotion sits in its purest form. You have been such an integral part of this experience, so if you look back with any feelings of regret, don’t. You deserve all the credit that can be given. Thank you for leading us in this journey, and for letting us lead you as well.
Like most things, gratitude is usually only recognised at the end of things, when they are almost too late, but credit must always go where credit is due. And I have you guys to credit for what has been an amazing year for me. I almost did not make it through that door to audition for Mereka so this has been almost like a dream for me. In a Sliding Doors-type of world, I wonder how my life would be like without Mereka and I struggle to even begin to imagine… Yet now I must.
Sorry for this emo note but my heart feels so heavy that I simply had to. And I know you guys understand.
Tok: “Hati kau rasa apa?”
Doktor: “Rasa sayang.”
It’s the time of year to dream about Nadinoo. It’s a bit early but I’m looking for a perfect birthday outfit…last year I thought that I wanted to get something from Nadinoo but didn’t in the end, so maybe this might be the year? I just love the idea of clothing that’s made to order, and designer Nadia Izruna’s designs never fail to make me dream about pixies running in a field of flowers. Pretty ain’t it?
On another note, I didn’t receive any notifications from wordpress so I thought that no one commented on my previous blogpost. Was feeling kinda sad about it, but then I logged on today and so the comments, and I feel instantly cheered up and silly at the same time. When you’re feeling down, sometimes these small things can make such a world of difference. Thank you, dears.
Am quite in love with these Dear June dreamcatcher-inspired necklaces. They make me think of the beach just before sunrise, full of a quiet kind of beauty reserved only for the special few that aren’t still in bed. Have not experienced that in quite a while, I do miss the beach in the mornings. Hope your week has been going well! I’ve been experiencing an overwhelming sense of restlessness lately. I think I need to focus on small little projects that will keep me going, simple things that will keep my boat sailing on a straight course. Do you have days like these sometimes? Today is definitely a Rachael Yamagata day for me.
(via you are my fave)